On your Birthday
Days flipped like a book’s page
I didn’t notice the flap it contained
the image when I held you through grace
Now it’s almost three years
but it seems you never age.
I wish you remembered your
when we celebrated it with
Papa and Grannies,
You were so happy you
kicked your cake when the
Icing swirled around your toe
and we sang you a birthday
November 22; what a festive day
cos it’s going to be another one
Sweetheart it’s your birthday!
But this time Papa and Grannies
won’t be there;
that it won’t be the same.
With your tiny voice no words came out;
you wouldn’t look for them
the way you should cos
you’d think they never left and
you’d still play.
Your giggles and energy and
cuddles here and more there
You’re beautiful, you’re mighty
you’re blissful; I ask no more.
Excuses, alibis and reasons
won’t buy your time
much more the ones inside your heart
I’m sorry Baby if it has to be
as dark as this on your birthday.
I know your sad; I understand your mad
But I hope one day, only destiny can tell
the day when circumstances are bare
And I can tell you straight everything
worth your pain; worth your wait.
No. I wouldn’t expect you’d
accept; more so understand
cos none of you & your brother
at fault; or to blame.
What happened between me and Pa
remained a fact and I bled cos
it didn’t last.
Years and more of those
years you’ll gaze before your tears
They won’t run dry; they never will
it would be like heated sea salt
to a grated wound
And I’m so sorry sweetie if it had to be
I wish I could contain all your sorrows
and mental stress
but how much of ’em I needed to know
when It was you my dear who was in distress.
Please don’t cry; don’t cry my love.
Know that I’m here for you.
I won’t leave you two because
Ma loves you that’s a fact
I’ll raise you; protect you both
That will remain til the sun gives up.
Someday you’ll grow up
to see the world both flip & flap
But in my dearest heart I prayed to God
I hope my love,
You won’t hate the world so much.
Hold that love inside your heart
Be brave and strong no matter what
All is not lost in love and war
have faith cos
that’s all you’ve got.
Still with all the grimes and nasty truth
Let me shout for you
on your birthday
Happy Birthday, Darling!