Requiem

My heart is in pain

I’m in pain

but if you are happy, if you can smile again

I will be ok.

The clouds are darker now than yesterday

it will rain more, storm more because of your passing

erasing your scent, washing your memories that are now perhaps flooding that better place you’ve been seeing

While on Earth, my tears will shed my worst longing

Perhaps, you think I’m greedy

and my whining has only delayed your departure

but what can the poor me do? My loneliness that’s about to explode—

‘Goodbye My love’ ‘You’ve worked hard.’ are wishes that won’t probably come out of my mouth since you have long become my heart

You are so unfair. Expecting me to send you off still with the heart of a good friend.

Putting me through all this, how could you be so optimistic?

If being good means without you; Oh I can’t hear you

Oh I can’t touch you

I can’t find you—

But if you are happy. If you can smile again then,

won’t I be ok?

The rain has started gently,

                                                falling in a sad rhythm,

                                                                                          but with a crushing sound in my heart

as if it wants to sympathize with me now.

Staring directly outside like I’m staring at you trying to make pieces of you again

and the Fool. Fool. Fool in me swirls with the idea of following you any minute now…

You are a light that grows more translucent the farther one looks

behind the moist glass mirror in the early morning

I can see a tiny flash of light that doesn’t disappear no matter how painful it gets

the unsteady image between us now becomes misty in regret

when obscures from the view. 

However one looks at it is something I’m unable to grasp despite knowing the pain of being torn apart; of dying now that the palm of my hands is drenched in tears.

my awful mistakes, these imploring feelings will be judged once again.

They are being soothed and spread by the rain growing lighter with my tears.

Dear humble light before me,

bearing the soft touch of our beautiful memories that weaken me

so that I wouldn’t reflect on our requiem, please,

imprison me in eternity.

pour me that shrewd smile with transparent eyes

They are being soothed and spread by the rain growing lighter with my tears.

I can see a tiny flash of light that doesn’t disappear no matter how painful it gets.

as time passes,

as times passes,

the tiny light will give in with memories of only being tiny the farther one looks.

They are being scattered by the sorrows, getting thinner because of the tears of pain.

 

Time moves.

Time forgets.